Sunday, May 31, 2009

Can't STAND when people are mad at me...

I don't really care about what people think of me, to an extent.
This may not make much sense, but hear me out... I care about people's FEELINGS towards me, yes, I mean in the literal sense, mad, sad, happy, etc.
I love it when I make people happy because they are always smiling, and it just makes the day brighter.
When people are sad because I am sad or I did something to make them sad, I just want to sit next to them and cry with them.
I ABSOLUTELY can't stand when people are angry with me because I was; a)careless, b)said something to offend them, c)spoke without thinking (I have a tendency to do that a lot) etc... It makes me want to do ANYTHING to make them happy again. But, sometimes the only way I CAN make it up to them, I can't do. So I want to punish myself even more, and by doing that I go into somewhat of a depression, and it really sucks.

Why am I exactly blogging about this?
Well, His friend is mad at me because I said something sort of offensive to His other friend. I mean, I didn't mean it in a mean way and I say it to be a B****, but I said it just to kinda play around... apparently, I went TO far.
You see, there was a picture He put on face book of Him and all His friends... so just to be a little playful (and it is not new) I labeled one of them- the Giant, The one mad at me- the Leprechaun, Him- Sexy, the one I probably hurt the feelings of- the socially retarded one (remember that one), and The guy I don't really- the random guy I didn't know...
Well James got pissed that I called the one I probably hurt the feelings of "socially retarded", but I put "LOL" next to it, and I guess that still hurt his feelings, but it wasn't intended that way. So now The one mad at me is mad at me and probably labeling me as a B***, for just trying to joke around. So now I am sad because once again, I pissed someone else off...

Now after saying sorry for a literal million times, The one mad at me is STILL pissed, haven't heard back from the one I probably hurt the feelings of yet, and I feel really sad and depressed, which will cause everyone else to be sad, because I am told I have that affect.
It can't get any worse, can it?

3 comments:

  1. Well we all have our negative qualities, like you love to pull peoples hair......my head still hurts by the way, while I am an ass ALL of the time. And why is it that people always ask the "could it get any worse?"? Do you want to bring it upon yourself? lol

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  2. lol You do that all of the time

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