Why can't you see this is who I want to be.
I won't ever reach your expectations
Even though I strive with all my determination
Let me go, Let me be,
I am about to take off, Fly above the trees
This is MY choice
Sorry to ruin your plans
Why won't you look and see who I am
I'm gonna fly
Gonna be somebody
I can be anybody I want to be
'Cuz this is Me
I remember when i was young
With pigtails and curls
Knowing if I just tried I could conquer the world
You raised me up on your shoulders
told me to reach for the stars.
And no that I am you are putting up bars
I know I am your baby girl
But you have to let me go
I NEED to learn to face this world on my own.
I'm gonna fly
Gonna be somebody
I can be anybody I want to be
'Cuz this is Me
I know you love me
Want me to be all I can be
But I need you to see
That this is my choice
I'm raising my voice
I'm breaking free,
Gonna fly high above these trees
I need you to see
that this is what's best for me
This can make me happy
'Cuz this is ME.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
She is MY hero...
She is my hero...
She gave me life, physically AND spiritually
She gave me happiness and realism (which doesn't always come in the same package)
She braided my hair and dressed me for school.
She walked with me, even when she didn't have the strength to stand.
She has been my support and my shadow, even when it is OBVIOUS she deserved the spotlight.
She taught me compassion and love
She taught me beautiful and ugly didn't come from the outside, but from the inside.
She is always there to pull me up on firm, dry ground, when I am in the lowest part of the mud.
She pushes me from mediocrity to full success.
She is the worker.
She is the woman behind you in the checkout stand
She has eyes that sparkle with love
She has the smile as gentle as a dove
She gave me her eyes, her smile, her heart.
She is beautiful
She is Pure
She is my Mother.
She gave me life, physically AND spiritually
She gave me happiness and realism (which doesn't always come in the same package)
She braided my hair and dressed me for school.
She walked with me, even when she didn't have the strength to stand.
She has been my support and my shadow, even when it is OBVIOUS she deserved the spotlight.
She taught me compassion and love
She taught me beautiful and ugly didn't come from the outside, but from the inside.
She is always there to pull me up on firm, dry ground, when I am in the lowest part of the mud.
She pushes me from mediocrity to full success.
She is the worker.
She is the woman behind you in the checkout stand
She has eyes that sparkle with love
She has the smile as gentle as a dove
She gave me her eyes, her smile, her heart.
She is beautiful
She is Pure
She is my Mother.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Breaking up is NOT the easiest thing to do... EVEN when YOU are the one making the decision...
I broke up with HIM
He doesn't understand why.
I told him it was because I wasn't in love with him and I was lying to myself by trying to convince myself of being in love...
NOTE: if you aren't in love with someone from the start of you dating them, YOU ARE NOT IN LOVE WITH THEM!!! You probably NEVER will be either...
But there is something else that I should have also mentioned to him...
My mind and passion was in it definately.. but my heart never was
I like the IDEA of being in love, and that is where we all are mistaken, we listen to our minds and lust rather than our hearts , which can lead to the biggest heartache of them all...
NOTE to readers: if you are victims to this... BREAK UP WITH THEM NOW or you will be married eventually and feel obligated to stay with them because of your children or it could lead to the biggest heartaches of them all...
Good Luck
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Almost to the complete end of TOTAL childhood... or lack thereof
It is finally here...
I am now officially a senior, my childhood is almost finished...
I am happy yet sad because of that matter though...
You see, I don't remember all of my childhood, but the things I DO remember, were good for the most part, but, that is not why I am sad...
Childhood, gives you the complete leeway of being "childish", but my thing is having fun.
I am not entirely ready to be an adult, with their boring rules, organizations, and seriousness.... too many obligations for my taste.
Maybe this is the reason I love theatre so much... I can act like a child, act like an adult, dress up, and put on crazy make-up whenever I want to and no one can say I am acting too childish...
I am just like my mother in this aspect...
I don't think she ever learned to grow-up...
WE are the kind of people who are ALWAYS looking for something; looking for another meaning within a meaning, looking for another someone to help or to love (not be IN LOVE with), looking for someone to play around with, to laugh with, or even to cry with...
We never want to be alone, but yet when we are in a room with a million people, that is when we feel the loneliest.
We will cry just to let all kinds of feelings out at once...
That is my life, my childhood, and will probably be my adulthood...
I don't want to grow up in fear that I might run into my biggest fears like commitment and obligations
OR, maybe I don't want to grow up in fear of living day to day waiting for another place, another chance, or another day...
To all readers: Be who you want to be, and don't let ANYONE pull you down... because if you let them, it will just slow you down until you realize you need to get back up on your feet and go...
I am now officially a senior, my childhood is almost finished...
I am happy yet sad because of that matter though...
You see, I don't remember all of my childhood, but the things I DO remember, were good for the most part, but, that is not why I am sad...
Childhood, gives you the complete leeway of being "childish", but my thing is having fun.
I am not entirely ready to be an adult, with their boring rules, organizations, and seriousness.... too many obligations for my taste.
Maybe this is the reason I love theatre so much... I can act like a child, act like an adult, dress up, and put on crazy make-up whenever I want to and no one can say I am acting too childish...
I am just like my mother in this aspect...
I don't think she ever learned to grow-up...
WE are the kind of people who are ALWAYS looking for something; looking for another meaning within a meaning, looking for another someone to help or to love (not be IN LOVE with), looking for someone to play around with, to laugh with, or even to cry with...
We never want to be alone, but yet when we are in a room with a million people, that is when we feel the loneliest.
We will cry just to let all kinds of feelings out at once...
That is my life, my childhood, and will probably be my adulthood...
I don't want to grow up in fear that I might run into my biggest fears like commitment and obligations
OR, maybe I don't want to grow up in fear of living day to day waiting for another place, another chance, or another day...
To all readers: Be who you want to be, and don't let ANYONE pull you down... because if you let them, it will just slow you down until you realize you need to get back up on your feet and go...
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
10 thing I HATE about people
1. They think they are smart but are some of them are the most moronic species to walk the earth.
2. The come up with the most ridiculous pet peeves or disgusts so they think they have to make a HUGE deal about it just to get there point across.
3. The only funny things they seem to be able to laugh at are death, sex, and dead babies.
4. They HAVE to dress nice just to make people believe they have a lot of money but people just end up thinking they are spoiled rotten brats and then go home to put something else on to look better than that person.
5. They say they are fat when the ONLY meat on their bodies ore the outer layer of skin covering up their bones.
6. Boys who wear basketball shorts ALL THE TIME and expect to get hugs from girls, when they clearly don't want to feel what they have below their wastes.
7. Boys who mistake shorts for pants and make sure everyone around them can see their boxers.
8. STUPID PEOPLE!!!
9. It is OK to get an abortion if you were raped.
10. People who wear clothes that are CLEARLY too tight for them. So tight that you can see the outline of their belly-buttons.
2. The come up with the most ridiculous pet peeves or disgusts so they think they have to make a HUGE deal about it just to get there point across.
3. The only funny things they seem to be able to laugh at are death, sex, and dead babies.
4. They HAVE to dress nice just to make people believe they have a lot of money but people just end up thinking they are spoiled rotten brats and then go home to put something else on to look better than that person.
5. They say they are fat when the ONLY meat on their bodies ore the outer layer of skin covering up their bones.
6. Boys who wear basketball shorts ALL THE TIME and expect to get hugs from girls, when they clearly don't want to feel what they have below their wastes.
7. Boys who mistake shorts for pants and make sure everyone around them can see their boxers.
8. STUPID PEOPLE!!!
9. It is OK to get an abortion if you were raped.
10. People who wear clothes that are CLEARLY too tight for them. So tight that you can see the outline of their belly-buttons.
10 things I love about friends
1. They are ALWAYS there, even when you don't want them there.
2. They ALWAYS try to do whatever possible that will cheer you up, even when you couldn't go any higher.
3. They make you LOSE THE GAME!
4. They accept you for who you are, even if you are partially retarded, kill all the jokes (even those that were dead to begin with), and YES... even if you are Mormon. :)
5. They will put up with you even if THEY don't want YOU around.
6. They are you shoulder to cry on and you are theirs.
7. They tell you if you look fat or not and they are honest about it.
8. They will laugh at the fact that you wiped their "Ash Wednesday" cross off their heads because you didn't know anything about their religion and thought they had random dirt on their head that no one else would tell them about.
9. They will go to your all religious party even if they are the TOTAL opposite religion and STILL find fun in it.
10. They are the people you can talk to about ANYTHING, even if they don't like the subject, and STILL stick with you the rest of your life.
~P.S.~ I appreciate all my friends and will love you all no matter what... <3
2. They ALWAYS try to do whatever possible that will cheer you up, even when you couldn't go any higher.
3. They make you LOSE THE GAME!
4. They accept you for who you are, even if you are partially retarded, kill all the jokes (even those that were dead to begin with), and YES... even if you are Mormon. :)
5. They will put up with you even if THEY don't want YOU around.
6. They are you shoulder to cry on and you are theirs.
7. They tell you if you look fat or not and they are honest about it.
8. They will laugh at the fact that you wiped their "Ash Wednesday" cross off their heads because you didn't know anything about their religion and thought they had random dirt on their head that no one else would tell them about.
9. They will go to your all religious party even if they are the TOTAL opposite religion and STILL find fun in it.
10. They are the people you can talk to about ANYTHING, even if they don't like the subject, and STILL stick with you the rest of your life.
~P.S.~ I appreciate all my friends and will love you all no matter what... <3
10 things worth living for
1. Family
2. Friends
3. Ice cream
4. Roses
5. Love
6. God
7. Light
8. Future
9. Tomorrow
10. YOU!
2. Friends
3. Ice cream
4. Roses
5. Love
6. God
7. Light
8. Future
9. Tomorrow
10. YOU!
OBVIOUSLY, I didn't have anything better to do, but if you need something to make you laugh, READ THIS!!!
OK, so....
The Rock, Angelina Jolie and Heath Ledger (b-4 he died silly!) were all having lunch together.
The Rock said, I've always thought that I'm the strongest man in the world,
but how can I be sure?
Angelina Jolie agreed. 'I'm told I'm the most gorgeous of them all, but
sometimes I wonder.'
Heath Ledger said, 'I'm pretty sure I'm the sexiest man alive but I've never
had it confirmed.'
They all decided that the best way to find out if their beliefs were true was to ask the famed talking "MIRROR MIRROR ON THE WALL" to confirm for them whether The Rock was the strongest, Angelina Jolie was the most gorgeous and Heath Ledger WAS (being the operative word) the sexiest. They agreed to meet again the next day for lunch to discuss their findings....
The next day The Rock walked up with a smile. 'Well, it's true.
The mirror told me that I am the strongest man in the world.'
Heath Ledger perked up and said: 'And I know for sure that I'm the
sexiest man alive...'
But Angelina Jolie lifted her sad, gorgeous face and said.......
“WHO THE HELL IS KAELA????"
HA HA HA!!! No not really, but it was funny at the time I wrote it....
The Rock, Angelina Jolie and Heath Ledger (b-4 he died silly!) were all having lunch together.
The Rock said, I've always thought that I'm the strongest man in the world,
but how can I be sure?
Angelina Jolie agreed. 'I'm told I'm the most gorgeous of them all, but
sometimes I wonder.'
Heath Ledger said, 'I'm pretty sure I'm the sexiest man alive but I've never
had it confirmed.'
They all decided that the best way to find out if their beliefs were true was to ask the famed talking "MIRROR MIRROR ON THE WALL" to confirm for them whether The Rock was the strongest, Angelina Jolie was the most gorgeous and Heath Ledger WAS (being the operative word) the sexiest. They agreed to meet again the next day for lunch to discuss their findings....
The next day The Rock walked up with a smile. 'Well, it's true.
The mirror told me that I am the strongest man in the world.'
Heath Ledger perked up and said: 'And I know for sure that I'm the
sexiest man alive...'
But Angelina Jolie lifted her sad, gorgeous face and said.......
“WHO THE HELL IS KAELA????"
HA HA HA!!! No not really, but it was funny at the time I wrote it....
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Can't STAND when people are mad at me...
I don't really care about what people think of me, to an extent.
This may not make much sense, but hear me out... I care about people's FEELINGS towards me, yes, I mean in the literal sense, mad, sad, happy, etc.
I love it when I make people happy because they are always smiling, and it just makes the day brighter.
When people are sad because I am sad or I did something to make them sad, I just want to sit next to them and cry with them.
I ABSOLUTELY can't stand when people are angry with me because I was; a)careless, b)said something to offend them, c)spoke without thinking (I have a tendency to do that a lot) etc... It makes me want to do ANYTHING to make them happy again. But, sometimes the only way I CAN make it up to them, I can't do. So I want to punish myself even more, and by doing that I go into somewhat of a depression, and it really sucks.
Why am I exactly blogging about this?
Well, His friend is mad at me because I said something sort of offensive to His other friend. I mean, I didn't mean it in a mean way and I say it to be a B****, but I said it just to kinda play around... apparently, I went TO far.
You see, there was a picture He put on face book of Him and all His friends... so just to be a little playful (and it is not new) I labeled one of them- the Giant, The one mad at me- the Leprechaun, Him- Sexy, the one I probably hurt the feelings of- the socially retarded one (remember that one), and The guy I don't really- the random guy I didn't know...
Well James got pissed that I called the one I probably hurt the feelings of "socially retarded", but I put "LOL" next to it, and I guess that still hurt his feelings, but it wasn't intended that way. So now The one mad at me is mad at me and probably labeling me as a B***, for just trying to joke around. So now I am sad because once again, I pissed someone else off...
Now after saying sorry for a literal million times, The one mad at me is STILL pissed, haven't heard back from the one I probably hurt the feelings of yet, and I feel really sad and depressed, which will cause everyone else to be sad, because I am told I have that affect.
It can't get any worse, can it?
This may not make much sense, but hear me out... I care about people's FEELINGS towards me, yes, I mean in the literal sense, mad, sad, happy, etc.
I love it when I make people happy because they are always smiling, and it just makes the day brighter.
When people are sad because I am sad or I did something to make them sad, I just want to sit next to them and cry with them.
I ABSOLUTELY can't stand when people are angry with me because I was; a)careless, b)said something to offend them, c)spoke without thinking (I have a tendency to do that a lot) etc... It makes me want to do ANYTHING to make them happy again. But, sometimes the only way I CAN make it up to them, I can't do. So I want to punish myself even more, and by doing that I go into somewhat of a depression, and it really sucks.
Why am I exactly blogging about this?
Well, His friend is mad at me because I said something sort of offensive to His other friend. I mean, I didn't mean it in a mean way and I say it to be a B****, but I said it just to kinda play around... apparently, I went TO far.
You see, there was a picture He put on face book of Him and all His friends... so just to be a little playful (and it is not new) I labeled one of them- the Giant, The one mad at me- the Leprechaun, Him- Sexy, the one I probably hurt the feelings of- the socially retarded one (remember that one), and The guy I don't really- the random guy I didn't know...
Well James got pissed that I called the one I probably hurt the feelings of "socially retarded", but I put "LOL" next to it, and I guess that still hurt his feelings, but it wasn't intended that way. So now The one mad at me is mad at me and probably labeling me as a B***, for just trying to joke around. So now I am sad because once again, I pissed someone else off...
Now after saying sorry for a literal million times, The one mad at me is STILL pissed, haven't heard back from the one I probably hurt the feelings of yet, and I feel really sad and depressed, which will cause everyone else to be sad, because I am told I have that affect.
It can't get any worse, can it?
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
What is wrong with guys and calling?
He has never called me before, unless he has a question, or something to say, not to just see how my day was.
I call him every chance I can to see how he is, but whenever I do, it is always blocked out by his friends. This however bugs me to no end, because he is always to easily distracted. It pisses me off to no end!
So lately, I feel I am playing with fire, because I am expecting a different result, but it keeps going in a circle... DARN IT! I hate his cat, because he knows I will kick it out the window if I see it, because I absolutely DESPISE cats....they are the most disgusting creatures on the planet!
On top of all that he idols his cat... I HATE AND DESPISE CATS!!!
I call him every chance I can to see how he is, but whenever I do, it is always blocked out by his friends. This however bugs me to no end, because he is always to easily distracted. It pisses me off to no end!
So lately, I feel I am playing with fire, because I am expecting a different result, but it keeps going in a circle... DARN IT! I hate his cat, because he knows I will kick it out the window if I see it, because I absolutely DESPISE cats....they are the most disgusting creatures on the planet!
On top of all that he idols his cat... I HATE AND DESPISE CATS!!!
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